School has reopen for 2 weeks and have to start revising for common test which is in august. Life in school is getting bored. So for English lesson i'm sitting beside him which i don want. When he sit beside me during English lesson, my heart is crying. Can anyone tell me why is my life so bitter? i know i cannot escape from this matter because they is alot of things waiting for me to do in the world. This doesn't mean that this is the end of the world. I really feel like killing myself to forget this matter but i know i cannot do this because there are a lot of people caring about me and concern about me. During the parents meeting session when i went to school to collect my report book and when is my turn, my form teacher said the grades on my report book wasn't my standard. She said my grades are suppose to be As and not those kind of Bs, Cs, or even F9. She almost told my father about my relationship but i told her not to tell her. I cried at that time because i am under stress. I just don't know what to do so she told me to write journal about how i feel everyday. She still tell me if my result didn't improved, she will call my mum and tell her everything. Everything including my relationship with him. What should i do? Anyway, today just write till here, continue some other time. Oh, and today is Hee chul birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEECHUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!